Joseph Burkes MD
A PERSONAL CRISIS
Twenty-three years ago I experienced a personal crisis resulting from an incident that occurred during contact work. I was in the desert at night with a group of CSETI UFO researchers doing fieldwork. It was pitch black. I was standing with two women from my team that had just described the sound of footsteps moving through the brush towards them. Yet no person or animal could be seen. Suddenly I became terribly frightened and this fear filled me with shame.
After all I was an ER physician, father of two children and a contact team coordinator leading groups into the desert to interact with UFO intelligence. Nevertheless I became profoundly frightened when I imagined that I was in the presence of an invisible force that could approach me without being seen.
A BOOST IN PSYCHIC ABILITY
When I got back to Los Angeles I decided that if I were to continue being a CSETI Working Group Coordinator then I needed some assistance in overcoming my fears. Several months later helped arrived in the form of a significant boost in my psychic abilities. This allowed me to feel more confident since UFO intelligence has amazing psychic powers and I imagined that my improved psi ability might “level the playing field” a bit and I would not be so fearful.
At the time I was leading a contact team in which psi played a prominent role. While in a state of deep meditation we carried out thought projection in attempt to communicate with any extraterrestrials capable of receiving such messages. The increase in my psychic ability restored my confidence that I was worthy to lead a contact team.
In the fall of 1993 it started. While awake in a relaxed state, either during meditation or simply resting in bed. I experienced what internet radio host Linda Irwin has labeled “contact downloads.” Visual images appeared in my mind as in a dream, yet I was totally awake. The images told stories of complex interactions with what appeared to non-human beings, presumably ETs.
These mental “encounters” lasted seconds, but when I wrote the narratives down they were many pages in length. Unlike a dream that one remembers with difficulty when awakening from sleep, these “awake dreams” were powerfully etched into my consciousness. Years later I remember them vividly. One in particular was so emotionally charged that I did not dare describe that particular “download” in public because during the telling I simply could not stop myself from weeping. One contact activist from Canada after hearing about my teary reaction stated, “The ETs really know how to push our emotional buttons.” I couldn’t agree with him more.
A STRANGE MENTAL CONFRONTATION
During one particular “mental journey” I was confronted with an alleged ET who gave me the impression that he was trying to teach me something. Not accepting the "physical" reality of what I was dealing with I said something rather rude like, "You are just part of my consciousness and I am having an imaginary conversation with myself. Tell me something that I don’t know already, something totally new so I can verify that you are not me."
What transpired next reminds me of a scene out of Dickens’ “Christmas Carol.” The ghost of Mr. Marley, his deceased partner, confronts Scrooge. The poor miser is terrified by this unearthly entity that is bound in chains. Marley appears to be in great agony. Scrooge tells him that he is not real, perhaps only the result of some undigested piece of meat that has perturbed his system and caused him to have a nightmare. Marley then rattles his chains in such a fearsome manner that Scrooge is compelled to accept the reality of the experience.
A MOST UNEXPECTED RESPONSE
I too was confronting a strange being that I asserted was merely part of my imagination. The answer that I received shook me to the core. The alleged ET communicated in a mocking tone, “If you believe in “universal consciousness" as you claim you do Dr Burkes, what difference does it make whether it is your consciousness OR OURS!"
Immediately I experienced what from a medical point of view might be described as a ‘proprioceptive hallucination.’ I was lying perfectly still but nevertheless felt tremendous acceleration. It was like what one experiences on a roller coaster when your stomach drops down as you start to fall. But instead of moving downwards I was “falling” outwards in all directions at once, moving faster that the speed of light as I “expanded,” spreading outwards into the dark cosmos.
BECOMING ONE WITH THE VOID
I experienced the coldness and emptiness of deep interstellar space. The distant stars glimmered in the desolate void. It felt as if my sense of self, my ego was annihilated completely. I was one with the void. I thought, “Is this what death is like?”
It was not pleasant at all. I never had a similar type of sense of acceleration before nor since. I guess you could say that the unseen intelligence that I was interacting with “was not Dr Joseph Burkes.” I never again chose to challenge the entities I imagined that I was in communication with by saying, “tell me something I don’t know already. So you can prove that you’re not me.”
About the author: Dr Burkes volunteered as a Working Group Coordinator for the CE-5 Initiative from 1992 till 1998 when he left CSETI. He has continued to study the flying saucer phenomenon working with MUFON and the Peruvian contact network now called Rahma. Dr Burkes retired from the Southern California Pemanente Group after thirty years service in 2008. He is a board certified internal medicine physician and is licensed to practice in California.